I can’t sleep again. Same thoughts are going through my mind. I know why I’m lonely. It’s because the people I’m surrounded by aren’t positive influence. They live life like a cow eating grass in a field while watching trains go by. No action. No projects. No future. Just eat, work, fuck, sleep, repeat. The…
I can’t sleep. I feel lonely. Empty inside. Unable to love, unable to feel loved. It’s all in my head. I know there are people who love me. But I’m so sad tonight. So sad, yet I can’t cry. I came to this country with so many expectations. Wanting to be close to my half…
So it all ended today. Several years of a broken relationship are over. And I feel good about it. Relieved I don’t have to deal with this crap anymore. I made the decision to stop the legal proceedings. Some would think I am a loser because of it, because I didn’t keep fighting for things…
I believe in the saying “men sana in corpore sano“, which means a sound mind in a healthy body. I’ve always exercised and stayed active. But there are moments where you don’t really feel like going for a jog will change what’s going wrong in your life. You eat, or you starve yourself. You abuse…
So I feel completely disconnected from my writing – one year ago, I used to spent approximately two hours a day writing, blogging, thinking about my plots and brainstorming. Today, not so much. I manage to write on my commute to work – and for that I’m thankful for my phone. Anytime I’m on my…
I’m writing this post in response to Krystal Wade’s Public Service Announcement – please visit the link to her post here: http://krystal-wade.com/opinions-are-like-a/ Perception is reality. We all perceive things differently, therefore we all experience reality differently. No matter what people say about you, your perception will eventually evolve when a life changing event forces you…
I haven’t been blogging much. Two reasons for that: my fantasy series Death by Chocolate is taking much of my writing time, and I don’t have many bad or difficult things to blog about. Honestly, I started this blogging adventure as therapy and it helped tremendously. I cannot advise people enough to write down everything…
So… The end of last week was somewhat awful. First, I worked like a dawg. Second, I thought my next divorce court date would happen next week, but it got rescheduled for in one month. And lastly, I had a nervous breakdown. Yep. Hit me like a ton of bricks. There’s no drive, no inspiration.…
I’ve had the privilege or the misfortune – depending on how you look at it – to experience once again a falling out with someone I considered a friend. Take it as naivete on my part, or simply the genuine willingness to open up and share stories with a kindred spirit, it seems nowadays people…
I want to go for a walk in the park. Away from the crowd, out of work and far from all the responsibilities that pollute my every day routine. And walking seems like the perfect solution to clear my head. Rationale = Romeo Judgment = Juliet Emotional roller coasters aren’t fun, and I’m no lover…
The Manicheans 