Note to Self (154) #Change

Time for change has come. My revolution started over one year ago and I’m ready to roll even harder! Only greatness can be achieved if I follow my dreams, no matter where they might lead me. I’m all about hard work and sweat, love and passion, struggle, tears, and everything that makes my day an incredible adventure.

“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

Marilyn Monroe

“20 years from now you will be disappointed by the things you didn’t do than by the one’s you did. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

Mark Twain

“It doesn’t matter where you are, you are nowhere compared to where you can go.”

Bob Proctor

It’s only the beginning of an extraordinary journey…

Death by Chocolate #DBC – Behind the Scenes of Ch. 2 – Caved In

Whoot! Chapter 2 of Death By Chocolate is out and can be accessed here:

http://curiosityquills.com/death-by-chocolate-chapter-two-caved-in/

A little story first before tackling the heart of this post… I’m a busy writer, and like many of us out there, it’s difficult to find the time to write when everything else comes in the way. Work, errands, hobbies, family, friends… the to-do list goes on and on, and at the end of a long day, the energy to write is rare to find. I have to say I also love my sleep, so I’m not one of those who sacrifices my nights for my books.

A great option I found is to use my phone to write. And yes, I can write on anything. Keyboard or touchscreen, if an idea crosses my mind, I got to put it down. Death by Chocolate was drafted on my Blackberry Bold! I use my phone so much, it finally broke down, and today, my new writing companion awaits me for bigger adventures!

So no more excuse not to write, J. You have a phone, use it!

Now, behind the scenes of Caved In

My intent with this chapter was clear – give some background information about the MC and maintain the mysterious atmosphere from Chapter One – Boxed In.

Julie finally learns the name of her savior – Evan. He holds the power to become a living light bulb. That idea came to me because of rave parties and lasers, the way they glow in the dark especially. I wanted to give a supernatural feel to the scene while connecting the dots with Julie’s past – remember we’re traveling to the deepest parts of her subconscious. The break up with Mark is still fresh so she can relate to that relationship and find familiar feelings in an environment she cannot control anymore.

Evan plays the only stable element she must trust. But will she be able to actually rely on him?

Evan keeps telling her in Chapter One that she entered a dangerous world, yet she doesn’t see anyone or anything actually threatening her life. What seems like a remote menace becomes real with the cave monster. Evan challenges her to beat the animal and hands her a chocolate, telling her any power she wants she’ll have if she thinks hard enough about it…

So what will happen after she bites into the chocolate? Well, all is revealed in Chapter Three

Until then…. happy reading!

Death By Chocolate – Ch 3 – First Bite

And here we continue with the Death by Chocolate serial, available on http://www.curiosityquills.com!

If you haven’t read Ch1 & 2, please go here: http://curiosityquills.com/published-authors/johanna-pitcairn/death-by-chocolate/

Chapter 3 – First Bite

It’s already hardly a piece of cake for any self-respecting female to take care of her complexion on a day to day basis and in a normal environment. Falling into puddles of bat feces would not have made my job any easier, and I was relieved to finally reach the end of the tunnel. Water dripping from the ceiling proved itself an efficient improvised shower as we entered a…less constricted space? A blasted Radio City Music Hall? No way to tell how big the place was since I wasn’t possessed of a foresight to bring along portable light sources when visiting lazy-eyed Gypsies in bad sides of town… Only Evan’s glow helped me get a sense of where we stood.

“There’s water if you want to wash your hands,” Evan said gracing me with nary a glance.

I noticed a dark mass in front of us, possibly a pool, and after my poo crawl, immediately yearned to shed all my clothes and take a good long soak.

“I know what you’re thinking,” he smirked. “I’d be willing to look away if it’s truly what you wish.”

“One of your other powers?” I snapped.

“I told you. You can trust me.”

“Fine. Then I’m going in.” I hastily removed my sweatshirt and dropped it on the ground. My shoes, socks, and jeans followed, then my tank-top. Trust or not, undies stayed.

The cold stung my skin the moment I hit the water, but a few strokes reenergized me. My fingers probed the blackness before me, and I ventured further away from the edge. When I finally resurfaced, Evan’s orange glow had become a small dot on the horizon. Alone in the dark, I took a minute to rest before dipping my head underwater again.

I hadn’t swum like this since moving to L.A. after my fifteenth birthday. Dad landed a hot executive job at one of the movie studios and nothing had been the same ever since. My parents sold our condo in Oceanside right by the beach, and despite Mom working to convince me there were beautiful beaches all around Los Angeles, I couldn’t keep up with the change. No matter what, nothing felt right. My best friend, Kara, being left behind? Fat chance it would!

Of course, I put up a valiant fight. I cried, threw hissy fits, even argued the sudden move would mess with my mental health, but Mother Dearest just rolled her eyes and placidly told me to check whether I had packed everything.

So, I gave up, and a few nights before my departure, Kara and I went good-bye surfing. The water looked like crude oil as the moon played hide-and-seek with a thick cloak of clouds. Kara’s head popped out as soon as she entered the water with her surfboard. But we knew the area.

Darkness stretched for miles ahead, and I listened to the ocean. Holding my breath, I slowly paddled against the small breeze that pushed me back to the shore. There in the distance, I caught the outline of a wave.

Focused on paddling faster, I prepared to stand. The countdown started in my head. 5… 4… 3… 2… 1… A thrill ran through my body like a jolt of electricity, and I closed my eyes. But the smooth ride came to a grinding halt. Water splashed in my face, and when I emerged after losing my balance like a frigging greenhorn, a climb onto my board to catch my breath was way too shaky for my peace of mind

“Kara?” I called, “Kara?”

The water looked so dark.

“Kara?”

“Julie! Time to go!” Evan yelled back instead of Kara. Rude, totally rude way of snapping me out of my funk. But heck, it worked!

“C-Coming!” It felt so strange to think of Kara again… She hadn’t crossed my mind in years. Heart pounding inside my chest, I started for the edge of the pool. Seriously, what’s with the sudden flashback? I shook it off and, refocused on my strokes, reached Evan in no time.

Guess what – he was watching me. Perv!

“I thought you wouldn’t look…”

He smiled. “Couldn’t help it. Seemed like a grand old time in there.”

“So, am I the only one allowed to have a break? Why didn’t you join me?”

“I can’t let my guard down. You know that,” he replied.

“Will I be attacked by a five-headed snake here?”

He chuckled. “If you’ve been fine during your swim, I don’t think so, but better safe than sorry, isn’t it what they say?”

“They should shut up. Know-it-alls…”

Evan made a face. It was cute. But he was still a perv.

“Okay… Well, I’m coming out.”

“Okay.”

He turned around as I grabbed the edge and pushed myself out. Back on solid ground, I grunted at the sight of my guano-covered duds.

“I can’t wear that stuff again.”

“What?”

Evan was staring at me. In my underwear.

“Hey! What do you think you’re doing?!” I lunged for my tank and dragged it on.

“Sorry. You can wash your pants if you’d like.” He was smiling like a little kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar.

“Some privacy, if you don’t mind!”

He shrugged. “Nothing I haven’t seen before.”

I threw him an angry glance.

“Fine, fine.”

Once sure he wasn’t looking anymore, I examined my jeans. They smelled like they looked. Some poo smeared the back of the legs and even spread inside the back pockets. I couldn’t wash that stuff away with mere water! What I needed was a Laundromat.

“Guess they’ll do as is.” I fumbled to insert my left leg.

“Are you sure?” Evan said.

“Yeah. They’ll dry. Eventually.”

“We’ll be in this cave for a while. So, up to you.”

“You can look now.” I buttoned my jeans and grabbed my shoes.

“You’re a fine swimmer.” The glow in his eyes intensified.

“It’s cool. I just don’t do it as much,” I replied.

“It will help you here.”

“How so?”

“There’s more water coming up.”

And he knew this… how? “So, why did I take off my clothes?”

“Hey, no one forced you to dive.”

I ignored his wink and laced my muddy sneaks. “Yeah, yeah. So, how long do we have to be in this bat shelter? Until we find light?”

“Pretty much.”

I snuck my head into the hood of my sweatshirt. Being wet and putting on wet clothes wasn’t the best combination in the world, but one made do.

“How do you know where we’re going?”

He shrugged. “I just do.”

“Really?” I found no hint of deception in his eyes.

“Yeah.”

“Oooookay. You’re all so precognizant there, wherever you’re from…” Not to change the subject too abruptly here, but curiosity was killing me.

“We must keep moving.” Right. Good thing it wasn’t killing me literally. “We have little time.” He extended his hand for me to grab. One thought struck me. The chocolates…

“Have you …” Evan must have caught the startled look on my face because he waved at me. Practically glued to me earlier, the box had magically ended in his hands…. Odd!

“It shouldn’t get wet,” he said.

Millions of questions coursed at one hundred miles per hour while I watched him grin at me like a nagging straight-A student, but reality forced me down to more pressing concerns. Water dripping from my hair through my sweatshirt made me wish hard for a towel. I might even have clicked the heels of my sparkly, red shoes – darn tootin’ this wasn’t Kansas anymore!

My hands automatically squeezed as much dampness out of my tousled rat’s nest as they could, but it didn’t really do the trick. Which brought me back to… “And how are you going to keep my precious dry exactly?”

He winked again and brandished the box. “I have my secrets.”

“Don’t you ever!” Practicality prevailed. I braided my hair and stuck it in my hood. “I don’t know why I feel so attached! It even sounds stupid.”

“No. This is your pass back to the real world. You must keep it with you at all times.”

“W-What… What did you say about the real world?” I searched for an answer in his glowing eyes but he looked down.

“Nothing. We gotta go. Come on.”

He quickly gripped my hand and pulled me forward. I let him, silently fuming over what I was now sure was his conscious effort to hide stuff. What did he mean about the real world? As opposed to the fake world? Or…

Not talking meant we circled the pool in what seemed to me record time and exited into another chamber, and then the next. The waterbed kept widening, so I figured we were walking by a river. Good thing Evan called me back when he did!

His orange light glowed against fields of stalagmites and stalactites bulging all over the place like mushrooms after a heavy rain. Wishing I had brought a camera to take some shots of the eye candy, all I had was my mind’s lens. Figures!

Distracted by the dripstones, I bumped into Evan as he suddenly halted.

“Hey, what are you…”

“Shhhh.” He pressed his fingers against my lips and I replied with a questioning look. “Listen.” Squeezing my hand hard, he whispered very softly in my ear. “Don’t fret, but I have to turn off the light for a minute.”

“Okay…” I mouthed back.

The orange glow vanished almost immediately, and everything turned pitch-black. Had Evan not held my fingers, I’d have freaked out again. Did I mention I really didn’t like bats? I breathed softly and waited for something to happen.

What should I be listening to?

And then, I heard it. Through the constant dripping and flowing of water, a very low murmur pierced the murk. It sounded like a cat in heat meowing to find a mate far, far away. Okay

“You hear it now?”

I nodded, and then realized he couldn’t see me. “Yes.”

“I hope the beast didn’t smell our scent,” he said reflectively.

“Beast?!” I was losing my cool. Which was all right. If ever there was a time… “What beast?!”

“Relax. I think I have an idea,” he paused, “I’m going to distract its attention while you run for the exit.”

Um, okay… and where was the exit exactly?

Evan couldn’t suppress a chuckle. “The beast is protecting it.”

Duh, ha, very funny. Hold on. I hadn’t spoken out loud.

“How did you…?”

“Because there’s light,” he added.

“No! How did you read…?” As my eyes browsed the darkness, I began to panic.

“Patience!” he ordered.

Seriously! This guy was beyond frustrating! But I suddenly caught a dot as small as a needle head.

“Is that…”

“Yes,” he answered.

“How are you going to distract the beast then?”

I had started a whole conversation about how to defeat a creature blocking a potential exit without asking once what this beast looked like or how big it was.

“Wait.”

Evan’s hand suddenly left mine, and a feeling of deeper uneasiness grew in the pit of my stomach. Where had he gone? Okay… Positive thoughts. As long as the animal didn’t move, there was nothing to be scared of.

After a few long minutes, I pictured an hourglass in my head just like when Kara and I used to play Pictionary. We always whined time ran too fast, mostly because our drawing skills sucked so bad… But now it seemed like the sand fell very slowly… Where the heck was Evan?

Hey! This was the second memory I had of Kara in less than an hour – well, I hadn’t checked the time since leaving the Gypsy’s house. Unless… My fingers immediately grabbed my left wrist, and I sighed of relief. The Old Lady hadn’t stolen it. Yes! At least one thing worked out in my favor.

I exhaled deeply. Kara hadn’t been in my memories since the move from Oceanside. And we had been BFFs for over five years! Gosh… She never returned my calls, or answered my emails. Some friend…

My stomach growled. I shivered in my wet clothes and imagined a big In & Out burger sitting on a plate with tons of fries and a giant soda. Last time I went to In & Out with Kara… Alright, this had to stop.

“Evan?”

I needed a distraction. What could he possibly be doing that’d take such a long time? Oh no… Not that. Gross!!

But when his hand touched mine, I jumped and found it hard not to yelp. “Are you crazy? You almost gave me a heart attack!”

He placed something in my palm. “You should eat this.”

“What is it?” I felt the edges of a small round shape as smooth as a pebble.

“Eat.”

“What?” I didn’t understand.

“Just do it. Come on.”

He gently grabbed my hand and moved it toward my mouth. As soon as I felt the pebble on my tongue, I swallowed it.

“Did you eat it?”

“Yes.”

“You didn’t chew,” Evan said.

“I gulped it.”

He chuckled. “Okay… well, you should’ve bitten into it first.”

I could tell he was making fun of me. Again. “Why?” I replied.

“You don’t like chocolate?”

“What?”

And then, my chances to say anything else poofed out like a curl of smoke from Bilbo’s pipe. Hopefully whatever I wished to add wasn’t meant to be too profound.
TO BE CONTINUED…

DEATH BY CHOCOLATE – CH 2 – CAVED IN

Chapter 1 – Boxed in, available at http://curiosityquills.com/death-by-chocolate-chapter-one-boxed-in/

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Sitting at my vanity, I slowly traced a broken heart on the mirror with a tube of pink lipstick. Today was Valentine’s day.

And I was officially emo. I even came complete with my very own soundtrack: my dumb exchange with Mark over the phone less than an hour ago looping in my head like a broken record.

“Hey baby,” he said.

Every time he called, I grinned like a kid before an ice cream truck. Mark, Mark, Mark… Stu-pid!

“We need to talk…” But these words brought me back to a reality I thought belonged to another couple, another girlfriend. Not me. Every girl was eating her heart out because I got to date the Mark Wilson from the Wilson Family worth billions of dollars according to last year’s Forbes magazine. I must have misheard him. He didn’t mean the talk.

“Yes?” My voice was trembling.

“Baby, you know how much I love you?” His words didn’t sound right. He seemed drunk. Gosh. I should have said immediately I was busy, but couldn’t bring myself to hang up on him now.

“Yes, I know you love me very much.”

“That’s my girl…” I listened to his breathing on the other end of the line and wondered when the bad news would finally hit me. “Listen, I thought about something.”

“What?”

“We should take a break. I feel the connection isn’t as good as it used to be.”

My whole world shattered. A sharp pain bloomed inside my chest and tears welled in my eyes. I couldn’t think clearly. He wasn’t serious. That was a joke, right? “Are you breaking up with me?”

“Baby… You know I love you, right? How much do I love you? Tell me…” he slurred.

“Just say it,” I whispered and prayed for the call to only be a dream. Or for never going back to school and seeing his face again. Or for being dead – being dead would work, too! – so the hurt in my chest would finally subside.

“Baby… I think we need to see where we stand, a’ight?”

But the worst part of the whole conversation happened when someone else’s voice echoed in the background. A girl’s voice.

“Who’s with you?” My tone had morphed into an animal grunt. I clenched my fist into a ball and my nails dug deep into my palm.

“Baby…”

“Who’s with you?” The fury inside me unleashed, and as tears blurred my vision, I punched the wall above my headboard, right next to the poster of Leonardo DiCaprio. Mark, why?!

“You answer me right now or I hang up!”

“Baby… It’s only you and me, you know that…”

“You’re a lying piece of crap.” I stared at the bloodstain my knuckles left on the wall and sniffled. “You’re such a lying piece of crap.”

I cried and listened to his breathing again. None of us talked for a long time.

“I’m sorry,” he finally said.

I closed my eyes and held onto the phone like a lifeline. Memories of him smiling at me, hugging me tight against him and wrapping his arm around my shoulders invaded my mind.

When I spoke again, my broken heart was barely beating.

“I’m done with you.”

And I hung up. Just like that, I closed a chapter that lasted exactly three months, five days, two hours, twenty-six minutes and forty-five seconds. But who was counting?

Or waiting for her flowers, and chocolates, and a dementedly happy teddy bear holding a heart that said “Forever yours”? Why didn’t he decide to dump me after Valentine’s Day was over, huh?

The next day, I went to school and did everything in my power to avoid him but wherever I was, something screamed his name: his car on the parking lot, his locker next to mine, and the last straw, him in the hallway with his new piece, Melissa.

I should have been the adult in the relationship and let it slide but did the exact opposite.

“Hey,” I said. Mark had his back facing me while Melissa watched me coming. She was very pretty. She wore a pair of tight black jeans and an off-white silk blouse, but with her curly blond mane, high stiletto patent leather heels, fake eyelashes, and red painted lips, she still looked like she wasn’t good enough for him. I should’ve been the one holding his hand. Not her.

She smiled. “Hi there!” she said. “How are you?”

He turned around.

“In fact, I’m happy you’re asking that question.” Rage was building up inside me like lava inside a volcano about to erupt. “Not so well,” I said.

All it took was Melissa’s smirk. My fuse ignited, my vision narrowed, and my fist landed right on her nose.

“Are you crazy?!” She shrieked and brought her hands to her bleeding face like it would magically heal her or something. Slabs of mascara proceeded to drip down her cheeks and turn her into… well, hardly the best-looking raccoon in the not-so-great indoors. Her lipstick smudged and her expensive blouse got stained with tiny blood drops. She scuttled away and disappeared in the nearest ladies room. And as I witnessed her distress, all I could think was how good it felt to see her so miserable.

“Proud of what you did to me?” I spat on the ground and waited for a response from Mark. Mind you, I wasn’t sure what sort of response; maybe, getting mad or, at least, calling me a nut job. But he just stood there.

“You’re a loser,” I hissed. I was boiling inside. Fists clenching as hard as they could, I fought against punching him in the nose, too. Taking what was left of the high road, I marched back to my car, doing my best not to hear the other students cheer. I only listened to my inner voice telling me to drive out of town until my gas tank ran dry.

I opened my eyes and felt groggy like after sleeping for eighteen hours straight. Had I been? Certainly, relieving arguably some of the worst twenty-four hours of my life landed this squarely in the realm of nightmares. Hours that served to propel me here, by the way. Wherever here was. That smelled horrendously like mildew.

To add… well, injury to insult, “here” was, also, cold and humid. A drop fell on my head, and I shivered when a light breeze blew up my neck. Darkness was everywhere. I could barely see in front of me, even less know where the boy had taken himself off to. Or if he’d even been real in the first place.

Another drop splashed on my nose. I squinted to see where I was, but a few minutes proved my effort altogether futile. I started rubbing my arms when the sudden flapping of wings came from my right…

“What the heck?” I squeaked, ducking and covering my head.

“Hey! You’re awake! How are you feeling?” It sounded like the boy was right on top of me. Not that way.

I wiped the few more droplets that had fallen on my hair.

“Would you mind telling me at last where we are?” I had been asking that question way too often and hadn’t gotten a response yet.

“I found shelter in a cave.”

A lump formed in my throat. “And is that cave infested with bats?” The little bloodsucking creatures terrified me beyond belief.

”That’s alright. They stay away from the light.”

“Ha, very funny.” I wished I could see him so I could break his neck with my bare hands. Next time, I would stay home. Running away is never a good idea.

He chuckled softly and appeared before me. My jaw dropped so hard, I thought it broke. My savior was surrounded by a halo of orange light that glowed exactly like psychedelic lasers at a rave party. Now, don’t ask why I know about that stuff. Just chalk it up to me wanting to be such a good little girlfriend…

His eyes especially glowed greener than usual, as if there was a “usual” in this crazy world. I sighed.

“So, how are you?” The boy sat next to me, and I basked in his warm light like a cat in the sun.

“Where should I start?” I replied. “We’re not alone here.”

“I know,” he smiled. “There was nowhere else to go.”

I shrugged. “Right.”

My eyes ventured along the water-covered walls and ceiling, and I longed to be outside again. What were we running from anyway?

“Alright, I guess now we’re safe, you owe me a little explanation.” I pushed a wet strand of hair away from my face and looked at him. He was a really handsome male specimen! Perfect hairless skin, pearly-whites, high cheekbones, strong jaw, and when he laughed, I noticed a dimple on his left cheek. What on earth made me think Mark was so attractive?

“Ha. There’s so much that can’t be explained,” he said.

Have I already mentioned how much I dislike enigmatic answers?

“Well, let’s start simple. Where are we?”

“I’m not sure.”

Great.

“But about you running super fast, or becoming a living light bulb?”

He chuckled softly. “I know you can do anything you wish in this world. I learned that after I battled the…” Something must have caught his attention, but I didn’t hear or see anything.

“After you battled…?” And did he cough it up? Yeah, exactly!

Instead, he exhaled deeply. “You must promise me something…” he finally said.

He grabbed both my hands – yes, I was still holding onto my box of chocolates – and squeezed them gently. His soft fingers on my skin gave me shudders. I suppressed a nervous giggle and stared at the ground.

“Julie. My name’s Julie,” I interjected.

“Julie. I’m Evan.”

My body jerked backwards.

“You don’t look like an Evan. More like a Miguel, or a Pablo.”

He knitted his brows. “Okay. Well, I’m Evan.”

He seemed upset I didn’t like his name. “How is that possible?”

“How is it possible you are Julie and not Kim?”

“Good point… I hate Kims anyway.” My three hundred dollar pair of snickers was muddy. Awesome.

“Alright. So…” He searched for my eyes. “Promise me something.”

I looked back at him.

“Promise you’ll always stay with me,” he said.

“Wow, alright there, I don’t know you, and…”

He let go of my hands and walked away from me. “Forget it.”

“Hey, wait!” I followed him. “I was joking.”

When I came close to him, he threw me a glance to make me feel a bit guilty for mocking his words.

“Fine. I’ll always stay with you.” Gosh, my words sounded way too cheesy.

“Thank you.” He smiled.

But I suspected he had something in mind if he asked me to make such a promise. “Why?”

He turned around and pointed at the darkest part of the cave where all the bats flew from earlier.

“Because we’re going down there. And… it’s going to be dangerous.”

I wished I were Carrie and possessed telekinetic powers. He studied the expression on my face and laughed.

“You can’t break your promise now!”

“You know…” I said, “just because you have crazy powers doesn’t mean I’m going to be your little dog you can walk on a leash anywhere it pleases you. And you still haven’t told me what this place was.”

He leaned toward me very slowly and I feared he was attempting something I wasn’t prepared for. Not that I’d have pushed him away… but gosh, it so would’ve felt awkward!

“Admit it. You like being told what to do. And” he added mockingly. “This is a cave.”

I took a step back and stared at his – beautiful – glowing green eyes.

“Don’t try me.”

He giggled and pulled my hand forward. “You’re funny. Come on. Long way to go,” he said, and his voice echoed against the walls of the cave.

“Could you, at least, tell me where we’re going?” Underscoring the whininess, my stomach growled. Now wasn’t the time to be hungry. What was there to eat in this god-forsaken place? Raw bats?

“We need to find an exit,” Evan mumbled, effectively ignoring the grumbling.

“Well, can’t we go back the way we used to enter?”

“Negative.”

“Why?”

“Because we’d be killed.” I could tell he was growing annoyed by my questions.

“But who’s after us?!” Ha! He wasn’t the only one getting fed up.

“I told you.”

“No you didn’t!” I stalled and stomped my feet to the ground like a five year-old.

“Quiet!” He glared at me and I instantly shushed. “You can’t make noises like that. I managed to buy us some time, but we have to keep moving.”

“Why are you being so mysterious?” I whispered.

“You’ll understand everything when the right time comes. Trust me.”

I huffed. “I hate this place already. Everything’s so dark and humid here. And I’m crawling down bat poo.”

“Would you rather be eaten alive by five-headed snakes?” His wink made me scowl.

“Why am I here?”

But he didn’t reply. Instead, he jerked my hand forward, less gently this time, and forced me down a narrower part of the tunnel. My stomach growled again.

“Can’t you use your powers to get me dinner? I’m starving.”

“And you’ve been carrying what exactly?” he glanced at my hand still clenched around the blasted chocolate box.

“Wait a sec! Have you been prying while I was unconscious?”

He chuckled but didn’t say anything.

“Well, that’s nice. Now I know I can’t trust you!”

His green eyes glowed harder as he swung around to face me. “I’m your only friend here. Remember your promise.”

I sighed and glanced at the box. What would happen if I took a bite and landed in a scarier world, alone? Then again, I didn’t know what to think of Evan, either. He seemed distant. Was he ignoring my questions on purpose or did he really not know the answers? He talked about five-headed snakes… and also said I could do anything in this world.

I womanfully ignored my complaining stomach, and focused on his supernatural glow. When a bat flew near my face, I didn’t even flinch. The Gypsy said I was destined for greatness, right? What did she even mean? And she mentioned a boy. Was Evan the one supposed to follow me? ‘Cause so far, he so was the one doing the leading!

Down, for instance, this here tunnel as it became narrower and the bat poo remained as copious as ever. I suddenly wondered whether Melissa had filed an assault claim against me and a police warrant had been issued. That stuff seemed so long ago…

Evan moved down the tunnel as if he’d done this his entire life. His hands expertly touched the walls in ways that had him almost gliding instead of crawling. I envied him. I, also, wanted to know what he knew. If I actually wasn’t dreaming or dead, I needed an explanation as to why I was here.

And what here exactly was.

TO BE CONTINUED…

Death by Chocolate – Behind the Scenes Ch. 1 – Boxed In

The beginning of an idea blooms in a maze we can’t navigate. Merely a passenger of our own mind, the journey of a thought shows only the tip of the iceberg. We believe we know who we are, and what we’re made of, but dreams keep coming and show us darkness, fear, and the need to repent for sins committed long ago. Memories build. Sensations remain. Previous experiences protect us from future mistakes. Or do they? The more we repress the past, the more it comes back to haunt us.

I’ve been working on the concept of traveling back into the subconscious and unveiling hidden truths controlling us. The inspiration was the movie Inception. Christopher Nolan wrote a treatment about “dream stealers” and developed the idea of lucid dreaming. I sought to write a story that would explore introspection. And from there, Death by Chocolate was born.

The first chapter of this fantasy serial was released last Monday on this site. Giving you a few hints here and there to spice up your reading experience, I’ll write about each chapter as the story will unfold week by week.

So let’s start shall we?

Chapter One – Boxed In

The first chapter introduces Julie, the main character of the story. You get it right away, the girl is a conflicted seventeen year old. Very rebellious, wanting to break free from the parental unit, she’s running away from something. She’s a very strong character but her immaturity makes her question everything in life. Impulsive and short tempered, these two traits will play against her.

Her trip to the Gypsy and the bite into the chocolate is the inception of her nightmare. From the get go, she loses control and follows this strange boy who magically appears before her after she wakes up in this other world. Who is he? What does he want? Why is he helping her?

The more you’ll learn about the boy, the more you’ll understand my admiration for the movie Inception and the concept of a journey inside someone’s subconscious. But don’t get fooled: no one is implanting or stealing ideas. As Julie goes down deeper, we go down with her, and just like a dream, some things won’t make sense right away, but I left hints…

If you haven’t read the first chapter yet, you can access it here: http://curiosityquills.com/death-by-chocolate-chapter-one-boxed-in/

Happy reading, until chapter 2 (and more behind the scenes explanations…)

DEATH BY CHOCOLATE

It’s sweet and tasty – you have been waiting for it – well it has finally arrived!

Now I have to suppress the need to be self-conscious and critique my work up to the point where I will tear it to shreds…

Death by Chocolate is the new fantasy story of your summer.

At seventeen years old, Julie deals with more problems than most teenagers her age. A runaway, she quickly ends up homeless and broke. When an old Gypsy woman offers to read her future in exchange for a meal, the challenge sounds like a dare. The tarot cards reveal a great destiny, and a perilous journey – and a red heart shaped box of chocolates melts reality and fantasy into one never ending nightmare where failure equals death.

Julie wakes up in an unwelcoming world filled with danger. A boy named Evan introduces himself as her guide, but will he really help her when she needs him the most? Demons of a long forgotten past haunt her dreams and seek revenge for something she doesn’t remember. Too many questions receive too little answers.

Will Julie accept the truth to survive?

Death by Chocolate is a romantic urban fantasy adventure by Johanna K. Pitcairn, serialized and published right here at Curiosity Quills, every Monday.

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Chapter 1 – Boxed In

Hi. My name’s Julie, and I’m seventeen years old. Three days ago, I ran away from home. It wasn’t my first time and I’ll spare you most of the details. Anyway, since then, my life kinda turned upside down, to say the least.

I drove east, far away from the myriad of problems that filled up my existence. I didn’t really think of where I’d go and what I’d do once I left, but I didn’t care. I felt stuck in a world where I didn’t belong, and I wanted out.

My journey started on the road to Las Vegas. Despite being too young to gamble, I stayed in a cheap motel room until I’d figure out where to go next. I didn’t plan my escape very wisely. I didn’t even bring enough cash and as soon as the word was out, my parents blocked my checking account. Not enough cash, by the way, meant exactly seventy-five dollars and some spare change bulking up my wallet. Stopping by a pawn shop to sell my Cartier watch and make extra money was an option, but I decided against it. I liked my watch. And who knew, maybe I was going to need it in exchange for something much more important than a few gallons of gas.

I ate lots of junk food, but after a while I simply had enough of curly fries and onion rings, so I began stealing. Petty theft didn’t work out great, I realized. Drenched and hungry on one pouring afternoon, I ran into this old Gypsy woman outside a D­ollar Store. I considered begging to buy a bag of chips. Pa-the-tic. The Gypsy came over and told me she worked as a psychic. Picture my reaction. I rolled my eyes and told her to find another victim, but she insisted I wouldn’t have to pay for anything, and she’d get me food! She really wanted to read my future.

What the heck? I let her.

We walked for a little while down this really sketchy neighborhood. Inhabited houses needed repair. Condemned buildings sheltered squatters. No tree grew anywhere, and even grass looked filthy among the sidewalk cracks. I watched rusty cars slowly drive by along the one way street. I’d freak if one of them stopped. I was sure people carried guns around, and it was a bit early to die of a stray bullet. Now the thought of the Gypsy turning into a homicidal maniac also crossed my mind, but I didn’t muster the courage to run away on an empty stomach. What can I say? She was my only option left, besides returning to my parents with my tail neatly tucked between my legs, and that idea didn’t sound very appealing.

As a black Mercedes SUV cruised down the asphalt, I questioned my authority issues again. Maybe I should have gone home after all. I thought of a drug dealer surveying his block, or rich kids in search for drugs. Either way, I don’t do drugs.

I sighed.

“I’ll make you a nice dinner.” The Gypsy winked at me with her lazy eye, and smiled with her toothless mouth. Working as a psychic apparently didn’t pay well.

The woman seemed nice enough to care about me, on the contrary of many who had crossed my path these past few days. I couldn’t let her down now. We were so close to her place. I sucked it up.

I smiled in return but didn’t say much. We kept walking in silence until we finally reached an okay looking three-story house. Not bad. However, my hopes went downhill at the sight of her apartment.

The dust ruled supreme. Papers covered the top of the kitchen counter and the living room table. The place wasn’t well-furnished, and the walls badly needed a fresh coat of paint. A freaking dump. I also smelled incense and sneezed. I hated incense. It always made me feel like I was in a temple, or worse, a funeral home. I wasn’t too keen on hanging out with religious people.

Yep, I should have gone. First impressions never lie. Plus, I had lost my appetite.

“Sit down.”

Guess not. Okay, in five minutes, I’d go. I found a clear spot on the couch and waited. She disappeared into the kitchen, and then came back with two cups of hot coffee.

Aw, that was nice of her.

While I sipped my coffee, she moved the papers off the living room table.

“Come here.” She pointed at the nearest chair, and as I obeyed, proceeded to grab a set of Tarot cards and shuffle the deck. Five minutes. I’d only stay five minutes.

“Pick one.” She put the cards face down on the table, and I placed my index finger on one.

“Another one.”

Yeah. Then, rinse and repeat until she had five cards in front of her. She put away the rest and turned the first card up.

“You always start from left to right. Oh, I see….” Weird cards with weird designs all over them? I saw them, too.

But a cat bit her tongue as she flipped the cards one by one very slowly. I was ready to pass out when she snatched my free hand and ran her fingers on the lines of my palm. Gee woman, warn me next time, will you?

“You have a great future ahead of you,” she said.

I almost choked. Wow, I expected everything, but this?

“Okay,” I replied. And just like that, all my problems would go away…

“But… before you reach greatness, you’ll have to go on a journey. A very dangerous journey,” she added and stared at me with her lazy eye. I had to fight the urge to roll on the floor laughing.

“That journey will test your faith,” she continued.

“Uh, I’m not religious,” I put in and checked my watch. Hey, my time was up.

She must have sensed I was ready to stand, because she squeezed my hand hard.

“It has nothing to do with God. It has everything to do with you.” Her tone sounded too ridiculous to be taken seriously but I decided to play along. She was entertaining.

“What do you mean?”

“I see someone else,” she whispered.

I moved to the edge of my seat. “Who?”

“A boy,” she said with a glorious smile across her face.

I scowled. “Is it Mark?” Mark dumped me on Valentine’s Day,..

“He’ll follow you on your journey,” she replied.

I threw her an angry glance. You didn’t answer me, lady!

“Be careful.” She pressed my hand against hers and looked me straight in the eye.

I grew more and more annoyed. “Okay.”

“I have something else for you. It will help you find the truth.” She walked to a cabinet. I heard her rummage for something. Lovely, what else would she pull from her magic hat this time? After minutes that felt like hours, she came back with a red heart shaped box wrapped with a bow.

“For you.” She handed me the box.

“What is it?”

“Open.”

I untied the bow and pulled the lid. Chocolates? How long did she keep them in her cupboard? Years?

“Eat one now,” she ordered.

“I’m not hungry.” I stood but she pushed me back down and removed the lid.

“Eat.”

I watched the expression on her face and instantly knew she wasn’t joking. Honestly, I could knock out the rest of her teeth, if I tried hard enough. I even mentally prepared myself to land a jab right in her chin, if she pulled a knife from her back pocket. But she wore a dress, so would she even have a back pocket? I took a deep breath.

Me hitting her would cause even more problems than I already created. Was she worth the trouble? Her eyes were boring into my brain.

Fine! I’d eat the stupid thing, then go!

She stood next to me while I chewed. Well… after consideration, that tasted good, and bitter was my favorite!

I finished and glanced at her. “Ok, I’m gonna go. Thanks for the reading,” I said, but before I could hear her answer, the tiredness dropped me like a rock.

I woke up in the middle of a meadow, and didn’t recognize where I was.

What the…? Where was the Gypsy’s apartment? The old witch poisoned me, and I was dead! I knew it! Talk about a lucky day! I started pounding the ground with my fists. This had become ridiculous. My life had turned into a freaking soap opera.

I didn’t stop hitting the earth until my hands hurt. Anger coursed through my body so hard, I was shaking like a leaf. Tears streamed down my face. I cursed and screamed. Would anyone hear me? At that point, it didn’t matter. As I looked around, I saw trees on the horizon. A forest? No clue.

Where could I go? The air felt somewhat chilly. My jacket was in the car. Okay… now where was my car? Oh yeah, if I was dead, I didn’t need a car anymore. How on earth…? Something was moving in the woods. That something was coming in my direction. I squinted. That something was actually someone and that someone looked like a boy.

Okay… He ran toward me, fast. The boy opened his mouth and said something, but I didn’t understand a word. The closer he got, the more I took in the sight of him. His dark hair glistened against his olive skin. His shirtless body was tall and strong, and his muscles flexed as he ran faster, closer.

The boy yelled something. It sounded like “un”.

For a moment I forgot all about my frustration. Instead, I quickly rearranged my hair, smiled, and waved. “Hey!”

Maybe I wasn’t dead, after all, and I was just dreaming. Well, excuse me, ladies and gentlemen, but the boy in my dream looked stunning!

He reached me, and I stared into the most beautiful pair of green eyes… Squirm. Did I really squirm?

To my astonishment, he leapt like a jaguar and grabbed my arm in the process. “Run!” he yelled and pulled me off the ground like I weighed nothing.

Why did he say such a thing? I didn’t find the time to question his action because the look on his face was enough to convince me.

So, I ran too.

We went fast. Really fast. Everything around me became a gigantic blur, just like catching a glimpse of a speeding car on the left lane on the freeway.

We were literally flying through trees and bushes. The boy held my left hand while my right hand held the box of chocolates. I couldn’t let go of it, even if I wanted to. Maybe my fingers were glued to it or something. Mostly, I couldn’t wrap my head around what just happened! First, I woke up in a place I didn’t recognize. Second, my encounter with another human being started with the word “run”. Third, I had no clue how or why I was able to sprint as though I didn’t feel my legs. I’ve never been good at running. Ever.

I stared ahead and all I saw was a warp of green, brown and white flash around me. The boy didn’t slow down or stop but strangely enough, my heartbeat remained calm and steady. I wasn’t panting. I wasn’t tired. No air hit me in the face as if I stood behind an invisible shield, and was transported from one place to the next like on a train or an airplane. My run felt effortless.

My mind, on the other hand, was all over the place. So I focused. On the movements of the muscles in the boy’s back. Mark didn’t have a thing on him. Tall and slender, my ex hated exercising, but a two-packs-a-day habit does do wonders for metabolism… not to mention a bucketful of other stuff that makes me angry just thinking about it. Don’t get me wrong. Mark’s a smart guy, but did he have some serious issues! How did I fall for him? I’m not sure anymore. His smile, his glance, everything about him cried for my attention, and love never gives a warning.

Okay, the scenery was gorgeous. The aforementioned muscles rocked. Why was I still thinking about Mark?

When we finally stopped running like torpedoes, the low murmur of waves hitting the shore brought me back to a place dear to my childhood. Sand stretched for miles on a deserted beach that strangely reminded me of Oceanside, California, where I used to live until I was fourteen.

“Where are we?” The water formed a perfect mirror that reflected the brightest sunlight.

“We gotta go!” The boy pulled on my hand but I didn’t move an inch.

“I’m thirsty.”

“Really?” The boy puffed. “There’s water here.” He pointed ahead of him.

“Oh yeah?” I puffed right back, “where do you think I’m from?” and held his stare until he looked down.

He shrugged. “I don’t know. Where do you come from?” He tilted his head just enough to glance at me, and I caught a mocking spark in his eyes.

“What’s that supposed to mean?” I slowly started to feel uncomfortable. “Where are we?”

“If we stay here, we’re going to get killed.”

“That’s hilarious. And who’s going to kill us?”

“You don’t want to know.”

His somber gaze ratcheted up my uneasiness. “What’s your name?” I barely managed before my legs wobbled under me.

He quickly grabbed my waist to keep me steady. My vision blurred.

“What’s happening to me….” I slurred.

“We need to find shelter, and then we talk. Deal?” He sounded genuinely concerned.

I closed my eyes.

“You’re shivering.”

Oh, who were you, my beautiful stranger? Were you sent to guide me to the holy gates of heaven on my last day?

The weight of my body dragged me to the ground to a crescendo of pain filling my head.

“I’ll take care of you,” I heard him whisper in my ear before my whole world turned black.

TO BE CONTINUED…

Note to Self (153) Venus and Mars

So I heard the saying women are from Venus and men from Mars, implying we as a species don’t have a clue on how to understand each other because we live in parallel universes… Is it true? Well, according to my experience, I never really had trouble understanding men. Women on the other hand… Not so easy. But I hate to draw generalities out of isolated events.

Let’s try to be pragmatic here. Communication problems are universal. Some guys are great at telling how they feel, what they want, and think, and others are as deep as a wall of smoke. It all depends on personalities. I grew up in a home where my father – who’s from the European South – never felt embarrassed about anything and freely talked about whatever crossed his mind. I even thought at one point he was the woman in the household, and my mother played his male counterpart because she often stayed so quiet and secretive.

I have a major problem with people who can’t communicate. How hard is it to express yourself? Say you’re happy, or sad, share your opinion on a topic you like or hate, jump in the air, eat popcorn, laugh, cry, whatever you want to do, just do it! Life’s too short to be wasted in awkward moments.

Especially when you like someone. The worst part of dating is when you spend your time guessing what the other person thinks of you. Why is it so hard to just speak your mind? Say you enjoy the person’s company. Send a good morning text. Make a phone call. Go for a walk. Talk. I can’t believe I went on several dates with guys I really liked, but they turned me off because they didn’t keep in touch. And I’m not talking about calling me back after the first date. I’m talking about seeing each other for months but in between each date there was an awkward silence of several days, or weeks. I understand nobody wants to appear obsessive, but sending a “hello and have a good day” never hurts anyone. Especially if you intend to develop a relationship.

My take on this is the following: if the person is really into you, they will keep in touch no matter what. And again, I’m only talking from personal experience here, so please correct me if I’m wrong. We all start with a simple conversation. Why can’t we keep up and work on making the other person smile at least once a day?

I stopped looking at my phone every time I get a new message, hoping it’d be from the person I fancy. This is just a game where I’ll end up brain dead and alone.

Instead, I discard right away anyone who just doesn’t show enough interest in getting to know me more. If someone doesn’t want to hang out and talk except when THEY decide THEY have the time, ugh, well good riddance. Relationships are built on give and take. I can’t count the times I sent nice texts and never got a response. Or worse, the response arrived like two days later. Okay buddy, I get you’re busy. I’m busy too. We all are. But sending a text takes like what? Three seconds? And that includes pushing the send button.

Yeah, you got my point. If you think of the person, you will do something about it, unless… You don’t feel so strongly about them.

New technologies made it easier for us to stay in touch if we want to stay in touch. The actual effort of using your fingers to write something sweet cannot be replaced by any device. Get a grip! I’m done with guys who actually conform to the stereotype men suck at being romantic and caring.

But that’s alright. I always got more numbers to choose from in my phone. 😉

Note to Self (152) Letter of Resignation

You didn’t give me enough reasons to bust my a** so YOU could make YOUR dreams come true. I’m tired of the routine, the dullness, the lack of appreciation and recognition. Taking credit for my thorough research skills and my indisputable common sense has lasted up to the point where I believed you’d finally give me the promotion I deserved. But no. You took me for granted.

So, after many nights and many days spent before my mirror wondering whether I should stay or go, I’ve made my decision. A better life awaits, full of bliss and happiness, and much success. I’d rather die poor and proud of myself, than rich and in a perpetual quest for my purpose. You didn’t teach me anything. You only convinced me I wasn’t meant to live by your rules.

Where I’m going I don’t need a stapler, and my imagination will meet no barriers. I’m free at last.

World, here I come. I hope you won’t miss me too much. I was your best friend after all. Maybe we’ll see each other on the other side of the fence. Until then, I wish you all the best.

Sincerely,

Your former self.

Note to Self (151) A life of its own – Lovely Blog Award

You know when things take a life of their own and there’s little to control? I refuse to believe I’m stuck at a point where no change is possible. Yet… Can I really make a difference?

My fate is bound to the fate of others. Like the butterfly effect, one small ripple may cause the world to crumble. No matter where I go, I’ll reach the same conclusion because all ways lead to one destination.

My journey may be hard or easy, I’m here to look for balance. The hurdles I’ll jump will reinforce the idea I’m meant to fight for survival. If I stall, I die. All the bittersweet memories I gathered along the way made me who I am, the writer, the artist, the woman I long to perfect day by day…

I love appreciation and recognition of all kind. Today, I’m thanking the lovely Delilah aka The Woman Who Writes Stuff for her blog award.

Please make sure to check her blog at: http://womanwhowritesstuff.wordpress.com/

Here are the rules:

Thank the person who nominated you for the award.
Share seven possibly unknown things about yourself.
Nominate fifteen or so bloggers you admire.
Contact the chosen bloggers to let them know and link back to them.

Seven things. Um. Can I make stuff up?

1.  I love South Park.

2. I love tattoos.

3. I love Mediterranean food.

4. I love cats.

5. I love fast cars with stick shift.

6. I love to walk in Central Park.

7. I love to write.

My nominees are:

Krystal Wade at http://krystalwade.blogspot.com/

Diana Murdock at http://www.dianamurdock.com/

Gail Trish Gentry at http://chickletslit.wordpress.com/

Lada Ray at http://www.ladaray.com/

Jason McKinney at http://jasonmckinney.wordpress.com/

Kriss Morton at http://cabingoddess.com/

Julianne Snow at http://dayswiththeundead.com/

Derek Flynn at http://derekflynn.wordpress.com/

Martha Bourke at http://www.marthabourke.blogspot.com/

Karen at http://karensdifferentcorners.wordpress.com/author/karensdifferentcorners/

So here I stop at 10… 10 people I support and admire, 10 people who will show you their vision of the world, their state of mind, their genius and twisted sense of humor as well as delirious creativity.

What are you waiting for? Go check them out!

Note to Self (150) #Marshmallows

I fall for it every time. I think I know exactly what I want until I stand like a child in a candy store and I’m not sure whether I’m in the mood for a Tootsie Roll or a Jolly Rancher. And then, I get excited for a Marshmallow.

I always believed I hated Marshmallows. What is there to hate about them though? They’re fluffy and sweet, you can eat them as is or roasted over the fire. You can eat just one and let it melt in your mouth, or grab a ton and savagely devour them until your jaw hurts. You can be smooth, you can be wild. So really, Marshmallows are kinda cool.


Why am I talking about Marshmallows? Because I’ve ignored what stood before me all along.

I thought Jolly Ranchers were my favorites. They’re sweet and sour and taste great anytime of the day. They kick you right where you don’t expect it. Tootsie Rolls are more mellow and subtle, but they also reach the desired level of absolute happiness.

Nothing’s wrong then. All these candy taste awesome, and I shouldn’t be picky.

Yet… I got enough of Tootsie Rolls and Jolly Ranchers all together. Been there, done that. Give me something I haven’t tried before because I wasn’t ready. Then it hit me. I couldn’t appreciate Marshmallows if I had a weird opinion about them. I had to think differently.

So I gave them a try. I let Marshmallows do a sexy dance before I put them in my mouth. I waited for the awesomeness to kick in. It took a little while. I wasn’t sure Marshmallows were right for me. Maybe I had rushed again and made an unwise decision.

And then… I fell in love.

Here they were showing me what I had been missing. A smile, a gentle touch, a nice back rub, and a wonderful kiss on the cheek.

I felt in heaven. Jolly Ranchers and Tootsie Rolls belonged to the past.

*If you think I really talked about candy in this post, then let me tell you one thing: I wasn’t.

Who are Jolly Ranchers? And who are Tootsie Rolls? Simple memories of a forgotten time. Bad habits I needed to get rid of. Guys who didn’t do it for me, even if I thought hard they did.

It’s a new time, a new beginning. And I’m ready to dive in.