It’s good to apologize. At least I admitted I had a problem. Now if the other side just tells me to fuck off – well, that’s their problem I guess. All I can say is I’m letting go of the past here. I don’t want to hold grudges. I don’t want to remain bitter until…
I went to bed crying, I woke up the same. There’s this look on my face I cannot hide. The one of deep sorrow for all the crap I did and blamed on everyone else. When so many voices spoke up, I remained deaf to them. I didn’t want to listen. They all said I…
So you were right. I’m not a in a good place. I haven’t been in a good place in a long time. I thought things were clear, and I knew what I was doing. But I didn’t. I was clueless. I just let me anger speak and nothing else. I broke a marriage. I broke…
My life is a blessing. All it takes is a spark. The light that makes sense. I’ve been following the path through the darkness, wondering at every turn which direction to follow. Balancing arguments, juggling with concerns until I was too exhausted to think, every time I let my instinct do the talking. There’s no…
I thought I could leave the City, start fresh some place else. A new beginning, with many dreams. I was ready to move tomorrow. All I needed was the green light from my boss to transfer to another office. But this green light didn’t come. I got promoted. I belong to the New York branch.…
There’s something eerie about this dread that is falling upon me, like a rain of sadness, washing my happiness away, and filling me up with guilt. Loneliness, never far out, awaits my return. No matter what I do, where I go, if I look behind me, I see the shadows of my past looming, and…
Hello everyone! I hope this post finds you well. I hope all residents of NY and NJ are okay, despite the loss of power. I must say this experience was something out of a movie. Water rushing down tunnels, flooding subway platforms, building lobbies, roads, trees broken in half, cranes collapsing on top of towers,…
I have been quiet for a few days. I experienced a small meltdown, which is normal for me, but things are looking on the brighter side now. Lots has been happening. Lots I would love to talk about in detail, but I must stay patient and not spill the beans all at once. And yes,…
New situations require adjustment. Going up the hill, climbing, sweating, panting, and finally reaching the top; it feels good to be in control. I see the big picture and I worry less about petty concerns. I need to maintain a steady rhythm in order not to lose focus. Patience – yes – comes slowly, and…
Many thoughts, many dreams tonight ask to come true. I stand on the road alone, not looking backwards. The fear, the pain, the unbearable moments where I question everything I do, they’re just there to stall me, not help me. I must follow my instinct. Nothing can be achieved without necessary sacrifices. I made choices.…
The Manicheans 