Note to Self (138) Just A Feeling

I’ve been looking for an escape route, a way out, somewhere to run and hide until everything was finally over. All the tears I shed, the words I screamed, nothing meant much in the end. It was just a feeling of loneliness, a cry for help, my fear of losing the only love I thought I had.

I got so much more after I left. Someone entered my head and polluted my dreams. It was just a feeling of bliss, of intense satisfaction. I could do it, I could be happy again.

No bitterness. No angst. Just the feeling of being whole after an exhausting battle. Nothing lost. Nothing earned. Just a deep down feeling I succeeded. I found myself. I found others.

And it was only the beginning.

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