That’s funny. It just occurred to me that at the exact same time last year, I was still in a relationship. I actually canceled a girls’ night out to go to the Catskills with my ex, thinking that we would spend three days in paradise, which we obviously did not. We had a violent argument,…
Everybody tells me, time heals all wounds. My life felt like an empty void and my heart bled every second of every minute of every hour. I was wondering whether I had made the right choice, and whether it was better to go back to my old life. Now I know, everything happened for a…
So I guess I did it. I found the secret. It feels incredible to finally be in control again. I got rid of everything I did not need in my life, the bad, the negative, the difficult and oppressing, and I replaced it with, well, I’m trying to replace it with lots of positive and…
Fuck. I did something I was not supposed to do. And now what? It’s not like I can go back in time and undo everything. I have to face the stupid consequences of being an adult in a world of sharks, used and abused until I’m tossed away like a dirty rag… This is something…
I’ve reached a bottom I did not know existed. I drown myself into my work and stay late at the office so I don’t have to deal with coming to an empty home. The solitude I experience is new to me. I never lived alone until now. When I wake up in the morning, I…
I feel hopeless and empty. I cry myself to sleep because I can’t ignore my heartache. I think and remember all the good and bad things of my past, and when I do, tears come to my eyes. I don’t want to feel that way, but what can I do to change the state of…
I feel like I want things I can’t get because I think they’ll make me happy. I know it’s just an illusion and nothing will really change in the end. I’m a tortured soul with a hungry heart. I sometimes wish I were not so demanding and so impatient because I dream of growing old…
The Manicheans 