Alright, let’s play! This morning I kept thinking of a good topic for a blog post. Gotta keep things fresh around here. And my wandering thoughts took me to tantalize: torment or tease (someone) with the sight or promise of something that is unobtainable. Aha!
How unobtainable is my idea of success as a writer? 
Keep your eyes on the stars, and your feet on the ground – famous quote by Theodore Roosevelt. I don’t think it’s wrong to be too ambitious, but I gotta stay realistic. I’m tormented by the reality of my daily life – paying the bills – and making my dreams come true – writing full time. Let’s say I manage to sell a ton of books and say bye-bye to my day job. Will I be less tormented? Will all my worries vanish and be replaced by pure bliss until I die?
Me don’t think so. Nah. I am the type who’s always looking for change. New stuff, new gig, new challenge, and I gotta keep myself in check. Appreciate the moment, appreciate the opportunity, be happy with what I have and not what I want. And it’s hard. In today’s society, I always want more. More more more…Will I ever be truly satisfied?
I say this often, my primary objective isn’t to sell one million books. I have fun writing, and I do this because it’s my true calling. Of course, a part of me wants to be crazy successful. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t care to be the next bestselling author. But I find happiness in the journey. I can torment myself with silly ideas and the result will be nil. To become a successful author, and my definition of success stops at publishing a well written book, I only have to spend time crafting a great story and releasing it. That’s it. I’m not thinking of JK Rowling, Stephen King and all these folks. If I start doing this, you’ll find me banging my head against the wall.
I learned not to project too far into the future. One day at a time, one word at a time! Ambition is good, but it is like this crazy monkey jumping on your back and doing all sorts of tricks. Ambition needs to be tamed. There are lots of folks who dream like I dream and we can’t all share the spotlight at the same exact time. That’s the truth. So why torture myself? I don’t like pain. So I take a good look in the mirror, I repeat in my little head that whatever I do, I’m already a winner, and whatever comes, I’ll cherish the opportunity and will grow from there.
Have a lovely day!
The Manicheans 