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Note to Self (173) Feeling Good

New situations require adjustment. Going up the hill, climbing, sweating, panting, and finally reaching the top; it feels good to be in control. I see the big picture and I worry less about petty concerns. I need to maintain a steady rhythm in order not to lose focus. Patience – yes – comes slowly, and…

Note to Self (172) Choice of Life

Many thoughts, many dreams tonight ask to come true. I stand on the road alone, not looking backwards. The fear, the pain, the unbearable moments where I question everything I do, they’re just there to stall me, not help me. I must follow my instinct. Nothing can be achieved without necessary sacrifices. I made choices.…

Note to Self (171) People

I can’t sleep again. Same thoughts are going through my mind. I know why I’m lonely. It’s because the people I’m surrounded by aren’t positive influence. They live life like a cow eating grass in a field while watching trains go by. No action. No projects. No future. Just eat, work, fuck, sleep, repeat. The…

Note to Self (169) I’m Done

So it all ended today. Several years of a broken relationship are over. And I feel good about it. Relieved I don’t have to deal with this crap anymore. I made the decision to stop the legal proceedings. Some would think I am a loser because of it, because I didn’t keep fighting for things…

Note to Self (168) #Insanity

I believe in the saying “men sana in corpore sano“, which means a sound mind in a healthy body. I’ve always exercised and stayed active. But there are moments where you don’t really feel like going for a jog will change what’s going wrong in your life. You eat, or you starve yourself. You abuse…