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Note to Self (220) Thirsty Thursdays

Stephen Strasburg from the Washington Nationals… Ah. Let me just take a deep breath and contemplate all the talent this young man has. Nice. Very nice. Hehe. I love baseball. And hockey. But the hockey season is almost over. I didn’t go to any games this season because in my past life, going to a…

Note to Self (217) Sundays

Today was busy. But it was great. I don’t remember the last time I kept so busy and felt so productive. Well not since the past few months at least. My old Sundays always consisted of sitting by myself in the living room, my blinds closed, with my bottle of Black Label. I used to…

Note to Self (216) Crossroads

It’s all in the making of a thought. I don’t give it much power, but as the thought grows, it builds a personality of its own like a monster hiding under my bed. Soon enough, the thought is bigger than me, and controls everything I do. I don’t own the ability to stop the process.…

Note to Self (215) Gratitude

Today I’m grateful to be sane. To be healthy. To have a roof over my head. A cute kitty cat. Food. A job. God. Friends. My poodle. A purpose. Every second I’m awake, I appreciate even the dullest things. It’s part of the journey. A snowflake landing on the tip of my nose, a phonecall,…

Note to Self (213) Penance

I’ve come to this. The spider in my brain is pushing me to the edge, and I need a way out. I can’t drink. I can’t use. I’m angry. Tired. All the frustration I kept bottled up for months is oozing back like pus to the surface, and I find it disgusting. If there was…

Note to Self (212) I Don’t Feel It Anymore

I like this song by William Fitzsimmons. I listen to it all the time when I’m at work. So soothing. I always switch between crazy-hardcore-metal-grunge-techno-music-that-makes-you-deaf-if-you-stand-too-close-to-the-speaker and ultra-soothing-put-me-to-sleep-lullabies because I enjoy my extremes, what else can I say? There’s never a middle ground with me. Like my friend asked me to go for a walk, and…